MY BLACK GOTH.

Sunday, May 28, 2006

3:44 PM

CHAPTER 6

Karina hummed a little tune to herself as she studied her reflection in the mirror. She was dressed in a white tank top with a silver sequined heart, simple black skirt, black sweater zipped up halfway and a pair of white ankle boots completed the outfit. Around her neck hung a black choker with a white flower and on her slim wrist was a sliver charm bracelet which Trissa had given her as a birthday present last year. Her birthday. It had not been a happy day this year. She heaved a forlorn sigh and gazed at the little pile of cosmetics in front of her. She had painted her nails white with Trissa’s help earlier on.

“Maybe I should give him a little scare…” She mused and picked up a black lipstick before applying it onto her full lips. She gave her reflection one last look before picking up her purse and tentatively making her way to Trissa’s room and knocking softly.

Trissa opened the door and gave Karina a quick smile while shutting her cell phone. She smiled at her cousin and complimented, “You look absolutely gorgeous. Remus’ll be bowled right over.” Karina grinned back and asked for probably the millionth time that night, “Are you sure you don’t mind me going out with Remus?” Trissa groaned and rolled her eyes heavenwards.

“Not again… Yes, dear cousin, I’m very very sure that I don’t mind you going out with Remus and now,” She got up and yanked Karina off her bed. “You, my dear girl, are going to have to go now or you’ll be late for your first date.” Karina gave her a grateful hug and fled out of the house, waving goodbye to her aunt and uncle who were watching television in the living room.

Back in her bedroom, Trissa watched from her window as Karina walked away. She turned around and reached for her cell phone and dialed a number. The moment the other party picked up the phone, she stated in a cold voice, “She’s off to Manuka Palace. Believe me, don’t show yourself or she’ll have a fit. And, I suggest you come over tomorrow.” With that, she turned the cell phone off and allowed a small, sly smile to cross her face. Dear Karina, you’d better watch out… She thought to herself, playing with the curtains.
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Karina stepped into the restaurant where the design was simple and plain. Maroon tables and plush velvet seats, black walls with white candles in silver candle holders at intervals lit the room in a warm glow. She looked around and saw Remus reclining in a seat in a corner of the room, reading a novel, a mug of what looked like hot chocolate at his elbow. She had declined his offer of coffee but suggested dinner instead, to his delight. He looked up just as she slid into the seat opposite his. She lips stretched into a slow smile as he took in her outfit and makeup.

“Good evening miss, what would you like to have? Have you decided yet, sir?” A waitress smiled at them, indicating to the menu on the table. Karina thought for a moment before replying, “Ah… I’ll have what he orders, thank you.” The waitress turned to Remus who raised the menu and pointed at something. She nodded and graced them with another smile before leaving. Remus murmured a compliment about Karina’s outfit and placed his novel aside. She could feel herself blushing but her hand casually left her silver purse and moved the tiny silver candle holder with the three white candles to the middle just to escape his gaze. He snickered to himself as he moved it back to the side. She looked up and saw a twinkle in his eye. She bit her lip to keep from laughing and shifted it again. He stretched out a hand and once again returned it to its original position. She mock-glared at him, her emerald orbs challenging him. At the same moment, they both reached out their hands and made a grab for the candle holder. Only that Karina’s reached it first, causing Remus to place his hand over hers. She squirmed in her seat and tried to pull her hand out from beneath his, but he took her hand of the candle holder and lifted her hand to his lips and touched them to it softly before placing it back down on the table gently.

Karina quickly drew her hand back and pretended to fiddle with her hair. The waitress came back with a mug of hot chocolate and set it before Karina. She nodded her thanks and attempted to start a conversation with Remus, “Well, I didn’t come here to sit in silence and stare at you staring at me.” Remus grinned and replied impishly, “Sorry sweetheart. I just couldn’t tear my eyes away from this really stunning angel sitting across from me. Gosh, how I wish I could hold her in my arms.” He watched her turning her head away so that her hair would over her face and hide yet another blush spreading across her cheeks. He knew what he said was true. She was the first and probably last girl to have moved his heart and made him want to protect her for the rest of his life. Fortunately for Karina, the waitress came back with their meals and Remus decided to switch to a more comfortable topic. Throughout the meal, they made small talk and ate silently. Abruptly, another waitress came bustling past them and not knowing that one of the diners next to Remus and Karina had placed his bag on the round, she tripped over it and the glass of juice on the tray flew towards Karina, spilling all over her sweater. Karina’s jaw flew open and she tried to dab at the stain on her sweater in vain. Still, she could hardly say no the apologetic waitress who insisted on washing it for her and returning it to her. She shrugged, took off her sweater and scribbled down her address on a piece of paper for the waitress.

They had just finished the meal and were getting ready to leave when Karina nearly fell over the leg of her chair. Remus stretched out an arm to catch her and his fingers closed over her left arm where the still red slash was. He heard her give out an audible wince and immediately let go, apologizing profusely. She shook her head and smiled, indicating that they should leave the restaurant already. They left, Karina never noticing the dark figure’s eyes in the other corner of the room following her every move.

CHAPTER 7

They stepped out into the chilly night air, the street illuminated by the street lamps. Karina looked up into the night sky, smiling to herself at the sight of the myriad of stars glittering like diamonds against a velvet box. The moon shone bright in the sky, like a huge luminescent pearl. It cast its glow on the two figures strolling along side by side as Remus walked Karina home. There was a sudden breeze and Karina shivered, rubbing her bare arms.

She felt something warm on her shoulders all of a sudden and looked up. Remus had taken his coat off and placed it gently on her, his warm hands brushing against her bare shoulders. She did not miss the fact that they lingered there longer than they should have. Karina thanked him and they continued walking in silence. She felt a sudden movement next to her and saw Remus attempting to rub his hands together behind his back to keep warm. He averted his gaze from hers and casually ran his hand through his black hair with the purple streaks.

When they were a street away from her house, Karina turned around to return Remus his coat at the same time as Remus who was bending down to give her a peck on the cheek. It didn’t take them long to realize that the lips had met. Remus slid his arms around her waist and pulled her to him. To his surprise, he found his coat in his face as she shoved him away and raced back to her house, leaving him standing under the soft glow of the moon, staring forlornly after her. Neither realized that someone had been following them the whole night. And that certain someone was clearly not at all happy at the fact that the both of them had gone out together.

Karina ran up into her room and threw herself on the bed, panting slightly. There was a knock on the door and the knob turned. Trissa peeked in and put on a false voice, “’Morn Missy. And are ya ready for some action?” before leaping into the room. Karina sat up and giggled. That voice belonged to a character named Pirate Booty they had role-played for fun when they were kids.

“Aye, that I am, P’rate Bootay,” she replied in a different voice with a fake Irish lilt. Trissa burst out into peals of laughter and plopped down next to Karina on the bed. Karina noticed that her cheeks were redder than usual and asked her about it. She explained that she had been dancing in her room before Karina returned before asking her how her date had went. Karina groaned and recounted what had happened between the both of them outside the house. Trissa nodded understandingly and offered to sleep with her that night since the next day was a Saturday. The both of them piled blankets, pillows, stuffed toys and cushions on the carpeted floor in a corner and curled up, chatting away into the night before falling asleep together. That night, Aunt Marissa got it into her head to check upon them and nearly squealed in delight when she saw the two of them huddled together. She pulled Uncle Terence to the door and cooed lovingly, “Look Terence, just like when they were young!” Her husband nodded in agreement before shutting the door softly and dragging his wife away from the amazingly adorable sight.

The moment the door shut, Trissa sat up and leaned against the wall, sighing softly. “Just like when they were young!” Her mother’s voice just would not stop ringing in her ears. She recalled the times Karina and her had wrecked havoc and played dress-up when they were kids, she remembered the times they were practically so inseparable that even thought they didn’t look alike at all, people mistook them for sisters. She sighed again. So why was she doing these hurtful things to her best friend? She shook her head and corrected herself. No, ex-best friend. She lay down again and tried to get back to sleep but felt something under the pillow she was sleeping on. She slid her hand into the cover and pulled out a piece of paper. Taking out a tiny torchlight hidden in her shorts pocket, she switched it on and studied the paper. It was the photo of her and Karina in the identical purple dresses. A single tear fell from her eye but she stuffed the photo back and switched the torch off and lay back down…

i could spend my life in this sweet surrender;

Wednesday, May 24, 2006

6:51 PM

Just as their lips were mere millimetres away from each other, a gasp came from behind Remus's back. Remus whipped around and Karina tip-toed to get a good look at the person who had gasped. It was Trissa. Her turquoise eyes were wide with shock and she was gaping speechlessly at Karina, whose face turned beet red. She hurriedly withdrew her arms from around Remus's neck and tried to wriggle out of his grasp, drawing several "Are you really that crazy?" looks from passing girls. With one arm still slung over her shoulder, Remus leaned back against the wall next to her and gave plastered his usual "couldn't-give-a-damn" look on his face directed at Trissa, "Hi.." Trissa gave no response and glared furiously at Karina before turning on her heels and stalking off. Karina could almost hear a muffled sob from behind the black and blue locks covering her face.
Karina bit her lip and tried to go after her, only to be blocked by Remus's arm. She stared straight into his eyes and stated clearly, her green eyes blazing, "I believe there's someone else who would be much more willing than I am to go into a relationship wth you. Sorry." She shoved him aside and went after Trissa, hollering her name. She burst into the washroom where she spotted her cousin bending over the furthest sink, her whole body shaking as she cried tears of anger. Karina walked softly towards her and placed a gentle hand on her bare shoulder and whispered sincerely, "Trissa, I'm really sorry. Really I am! I didn't know what I was doing but I've said everything I could say about you to Remus, every single little perfect thing I could think of. He didn't give me a response but I'm sure he'll come around some day and realize what a jerk he was not to have accepted you in the first place." Her cousin's head whipped upwards and she stared at Karina blankly, her pretty face contorted in fury, "That's what you say, bitch. But for all I know you have been telling him horrid things behind my back just so that you will get him to yourself! Forget it, I can't believe why I ever had such a horrible best friend like you." She pushed Karina aside and stormed out of the washroom, leaving Karina leaning against the sink, every word she said still ringing in her ear. Once again, she could feel the tears coming to her eyes as the word "bitch" rang in her ears.
Blinking rapidly to keep the tears from flowing, she rumaged in her bag for tissue but instead, her fingers closed on a cool metal surface. she drew the object out, it was the bunch of keys to the house. She began to wonder if drawing it across her delicate skin would produce the high feeling she had felt the other time. Well, I'll never know unless I try.. she thought, gingerly placing the tip of a key to her arm and dragging it across, hard. She winced as a garnet drop appeared on the cut, before turning bigger and bigger. True enough, Karina couldn't help but feel her anger at Trissa's childishness fading away with the blood. This time, however, the cut wasn't as deep and stopped bleeding in a very short while. She hurriedly cleaned the area around it with a wetted tissue to get rid of the bloodstains and scurried out of the washroom.
Only to see Remus talking to a sullen Trissa not far away. She hid behind a wall and watched them silently when all of a sudden, Trissa sprung up, threw her arms round Remus and kissed him. His eyes widened in horror and tried to push her away. She let go and began talking to him so rapidly that Karina could hardly manage to lip-read anything. All she saw was Remus shaking his head and walking away. Trissa sagged against the wall and Karina could hear her sighing heavily. There was nothing else she could do for her.
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During the period where the students had time to retrieve their books from their lockers and proceed to their next class, Karina felt someone tap her shoulder from behind just as she was taking her french book out. She turned around and smiled tentatively at the whole bunch of girls. Mara, Jacqui and Priscilla were fidgeting uncomfortably and Susanna wasn't even around. Priscilla was pretending to study her make-up in a little pocket mirror and Mara was tying her red hair into a high ponytail while chatting to Jacqui at top speed. Trissa was standing in the middle of them all, looking utterly forlorn. She would not meet Karina's eyes and apologised self-consciously, "I guess I'm the one who is to say sorry... You did tell Remus about all my good points huh... Well, I think I've thought it through and if you and Remus really like each otehr all that much, then go ahead and BE together. Don't worry, I'm not gonna do anything to you. There's no point in me and Remus being together if only one party's admiring the other." She offered a weak smile and raised her eyes to Karina's.
Karina broke into a grin and gave her cousin a huge hug in return. Just then, Priscilla's sharp eyes caught the angry red line on Karina's left arm. She almost screamed, "KARINA! What happened to your arm?" Karina gave a little shrug and cooked up a lie about accidentally cutting herself against someone's locker's lock. Perhaps the girls didn't exactly believe her, but none of them showed any signs of disbelieving her little lie and the five of them went for their next class together.
Along the way, they met Remu turning a corner all alone.Jacqui chirped, "Hey Remus! Where's AJ and Susanna?" He mumbled something inconherently and fell into step alongside them.
"Huh?" Jacqui and Mara said in unison.
"I SAID THAT THEY'RE PROBABLY SNOGGING IN A CLOSET SOMEWHERE!" He snapped back at her snarkily(A/N:is there such a word?).
"And who might the two lovebirds be, young man?" An icy voice inquired politely behind them. They turned around slowly and came face to face with the school's Disciplinary Mistress. Remus replied, his face deadpan, "Oh, but they're not birds! They're my dog and Mara's cat, Miss Mullins." The stern face looked as though it was fit to explode when their senses kicked in and they dashed off before she could get a word out of those fire engine red lips.
They burst into the classroom where everything was still in chaos as their teacher was once again late and slid in their seats. Once more, Karina found Remus beside her, studying his nails intently in silence. There was a sudden burst of high pitched giggles as Ceicilia's little gang with horrible fashion sense laughed over a totally unhumorous thing Cecilia had said. Karina rolled her eyes at them and turned back to her work. Abruptly, she felt him lean forward and place his hand next to hers on the table and whisper, his lips burshing her ear, "How about coffee at Manuka Palace after school today?"

to be continued tomorrow when i'm in the mood for some mushy stuff. XP

i could spend my life in this sweet surrender;

Tuesday, May 23, 2006

9:53 PM

He leaned back, a smug grin forming on his handsome face, “Well you are, babe. So you better believe it.” Karina shrugged nonchalantly and returned to her food, although her heart was in fact thumping away wildly at the close distance they had been with each other. (A/N: god, wtf is wrong with my eng recently??) it was not long before the bell signified the end of break and the students streamed back to their classes. For the rest of the day, Karina tried her very best to avoid Remus although it was quite an impossible feat for he seemed bent on knowing more about her, the way he had easily memorized her timetable at one quick glance and managing to turn up after her every class to “go with AJ to accompany Susanna to her next class”. During that little period of time where they transported themselves to their next classes, Karina felt extremely uncomfortable in that spell of silence around her and Remus. It seemed to her as though Trissa had said something to the rest of the bunch for not even Mara would talk to her much, much less walk next to her. Instead, to her wrath, she found Remus there at her heels. Absolutely gorgeous as he was, she could not stand the fact that he seemed to breathe down her neck at almost every moment.
Finally, after what seemed like gazillions of years to Karina, school ended and the whole ‘motley’ crew made their way to the bus-stop where once again, Remus seated himself next to her. Just as they boarded the bus and settled themselves down, Karina gave an inward groan of dismay when she spotted Remus making his way towards her and the empty seat besides her. She caught Trissa’s eye and immediately shouted over to her cousin the moment Remus’s ass touched his seat, “Hey Triss, do you wanna sit with Remus instead? I need to ask Jacqui something…” Trissa’s eyes gleamed as she exchanged places with Karina, much to Remus’s chagrin. Almost at once, he got out of the seat and moved to an empty one behind them all. He again reverted back to the loner they had known since the first time they met him.
Karina saw how upset he looked and almost regretted what she had done. However, it didn’t take long for her to change her mind of moving to the seat next to him the moment her eyes met Trissa’s blazing ones. The bunch sat in silence the whole way back while Mara, Jacqui and Priscilla got off before the rest. In less than a few minutes, Karina and Trissa were making their way back from the bus-stop. It took less than a second for Trissa to turn to face Karina in fury and lash out at her for not taking the chance she had to talk to Remus to tell him more about HER-Trissa. Was she really that stupid as to waste such valuable chances to talk to him which practically the other section of the female population would do anything for? Karina listened in silence, staring at the gravel ground. They were greeted by Aunt Marissa as they stepped into the house where Trissa immediately went into her bedroom and slammed the door shut. Karina stared at the close door, feeling the easy tears prickling her eyelids. She refused the plate of cookies Aunt Marissa offered her and returned to her own room, shutting the door silently. Even through it, she could hear the heavy Metallica music playing from Trissa’s room just opposite hers. Whenever did Trissa start liking Metallica? She mused as she placed her bag on the ground.
On the dresser was a picture of Karina and Trissa when they were only seven, both dressed in identical lilac frocks and their hair confined in two neat plaits. They had their arms around each other and were grinning toothily in glee. Karina stroked the picture with her fingers, she remembered when the photos were taken… they were seven and attending their youngest aunt’s wedding. They had been delighted to pose prettily for this picture. Karina gave a small, wry smile as she recalled the times they used to be so close, discussing which were the cute guys who caught their eye, the lovely frocks that they saw in shop windows that they would someday wear when they grew up, the secrets that they shared… it all seemed so far away now! She sat up on her bed and tried to return the picture to it’s original place.
“Oh dear!” she gasped as the frame slipped form her fingers and fell on the fortunately carpeted ground. She bent down to pick the broken glass pieces up and there was silence till she gave a small yelp of pain. She held her palm up to her eyes and watched in morbid fascination as the ruby red blood welled up under her cut and spilled out in a tiny rivulet along the lines in her palm. She felt her tears drying as the hurt slipped away like the blood on her hand and all that was on her mind was the pain caused by it. She smiled to herself unknowingly, it felt so good…
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She woke up to dim light pouring through the blue curtains on the window. She looked around, she was leaning against the bed with the broken glass still scattered dangerously around her. She glanced down at the cut on her hand. The bleeding had stopped, but the cut was still red, her hands hand trickles of dry blood and on her jeans were a few spots of blood. She scrambled to her feet in a hurry and ran to get a broom, sweeping up the broken pieces and leaving the photo under her pillow before washing the bloodstains of her hand. Finally, she lay down on the bed in exhaustion and managed to catch a few winks before it was time for school again...
She washed up in record time before hurriedly changing into a white off-shoulder long-sleeved blouse with a tiny pink butterfly in a corner and a short pink skirt which she bought when Aunt Marissa took them out shopping last week, brushing her hair back from her face and applying a layer of cherry gloss. She came out of the room, only to find Trissa lying idly on the couch, flipping through a magazine. She was dressed in a halter the color of the streaks in her hair and flared emerald pants. She turned her turquoise eyes to Karina and plastered a pleasant smile on her face, “Mornin’ sleepyhead. Bye mom! We’re ready to go to school now!” A faint ‘bye, have a nice day’ came floating form the kitchen and Trissa kept the smile plastered on till she closed the door behind them. It was immediately replaced with a scowl.
“Trissa, I’m sorry if I didn’t take the opportunity to talk to Remus about you. I will do it today, I promise. Don’t get all huffy with me because of such a small thing. We’re best friends remember?” Karina tugged at Trissa’s hair playfully, and gazed at her sadly. Her cousin switched the scowl for a small smile as she gave Karina a good-natured one-armed hug, “Of course. How could I get pissed off at you for such a silly thing? Still best friends as always.” Still, while she slung an arm back around Trissa’s shoulder, Karina couldn’t help but notice that the smile on her face didn’t quite reach her eyes. (A/N: to skip all crap, I shall fast forward to school)
“Hi AJ, hi… Remus,” Karina smiled nervously the two boys. “Er…. Remus, I… I sorta need to tell… well, ask you something.” She glanced up at him flirtatiously from under her eyelashes, wincing as her palms got sweaty again and perspiration made the slash on her palm sting. Startled, the black and purple head whipped upwards and beckoned her to a dark corner. She followed apprehensively, unsure of what to say. But before she got the chance to say anything, Remus beat her to it, “Look, Karina I’m sorry for following you like an idiot yesterday. I didn’t think it would affect you that much. Guess you know pretty much that I like you, huh.” Karina blinked speechlessly for a minute before mumbling, “A pity I don’t like you then but you do know that Trissa likes you don’t you. And besides, you guys SHOULD be together ya know… I mean, you’re good-looking and she is prettyandintelligentsmartkindeverythingaguywantsinagirl.” She took another deep breath and continued, “She’s kindtoanimalshasgreathairgreateyeswhichareliketotallythesamecolorasyoursperfectbody! Seriouslyjustaskheroutwillya? Imeanwhatmoredoyouwant??” To tell the truth, she was almost screaming in frustration and the fact that she was partially lying through her teeth by the last sentence. Afterall, Trissa wasn’t exactly a big animal lover(she screeched her lungs out if she saw a cat) and she was smart, considering that she failed half her subjects each term. She spun around as was about to stalk off when she felt his strong hand grab her shoulder. She turned around and was about to snap at him to let go when he gazed wistfully at her with his deep, soulful eyes and said ever so softly, “You.”
Karina’s mouth fell open as he shuffled towards her and placed both his hands on her shoulders, pinning her to the wall as gently as he possibly could. As he leaned in closer, she could smell the aftershave (A/N:eww… someone tell me how to write a kissing scene?). unwittingly, she draped her hands around his neck and tilted her head upwards expectantly…

i could spend my life in this sweet surrender;

Monday, May 22, 2006

9:35 PM

you don't know me. you don't know who i am, what i am, what i do, why i do what i do. you don't know what it is like to be me, what i eat, what i drink, what i think, when i do the things i do. you don't know what i like, what i love, what i loathe, what i need, what i yearn for. most importantly, you don't know what i hate or you wouldn't even DARE to come near me. so stop sticking your neb into every single thing and make life easier and better. for you, and for everyone.
neither do i know anything about you and i'm not gonna bother to find out. geddit? so get the hell out of my life!

i could spend my life in this sweet surrender;

Wednesday, May 17, 2006

10:00 PM

finally continued this...

“Thank you Aunt Marissa,” Karina smiled sweetly as she took her breakfast from her aunt’s hands. Trissa was waiting impatiently at the door and tapping her foot. Her jet black hair was tied up into a simple ponytail and she donned a red t-shirt with a huge star and a short denim skirt. She had loaned Karina a pretty pink top and a pair of low-rise jeans. Karina scurried over to where she was standing, a brand new Converse bag slung over her shoulder. It had been a week since the death of Karina’s family and she was ready to start school with Trissa.
As they ambled slowly towards the bus-stop, Trissa filled her in on the usual people she hung out with, the more common teachers and basically everything she needed to know. It was not long before the bus came and they got on it. An extremely attractive looking girl with honey ringlets and wide gray eyes clad in a tight green spaghetti strap top and very low pants which reached an inch below her knees beckoned them over to where she and a few other girls were sitting. Trissa made her way over carefully and introduced Karina to the girl – Priscilla. There were three other girls whom Karina, based on what Trissa had told her, recognized as Jacqui (slightly curled brown hair and pure hazel eyes), Mara with the straight red hair and gleaming baby blues and finally Susanna who was apparently the prettiest of all four present with ash blonde hair and interestingly purple eyes.
They welcomed Karina warmly and soon, she felt as if she had known them all her life. (A/N: abit longwinded but BEAR WITH ME!!) Just as they were chatting away like long-lost friends, the bus rumbled to a stop and they trooped off the bus. To Karina’s surprise, while they were walking down the hall towards their lockers, the other students there parted to allow THEM to pass through, almost as though they were princesses. Seeing Karina’s surprised expression, Mara explained that the five of them before Karina arrived were the most popular students in the school, not to mention the prettiest, at this sentence, Mara paused for a moment and turned to flutter her eyelashes boldly at a relatively cute guy who walked straight into a pillar immediately.
“Wow,” Karina stated matter-of-factly. “Hey, who’s that guy talking to Susanna?” She inclined her head towards a very very very very GOOD-LOOKING (S/N: gosh if only he were real…. Sighz…) guy with a shock of honey brown hair and expressively sole-black eyes. He was gazing deep into Susanna’s eyes and in his hands he held a blood-red rose. And his eyes never left Susanna and the EVEN BETTER LOOKING GUY (A/N: juz fulfilling my heart’s image of the perfect guy…. Another sigh) leaning on the wall behind him had his apparently turquoise eyes fixed on the ground. His black hair had streaks of purple in them. Mara continued talking to her, “Him? Oh, he’s Argmento James. We call him AJ. Weird name huh? But can’t blame the poor guy, his parents chose his name… anyway, he’s practically in love with Susanna and honestly, Susanna sorta likes him too. Don’t tell anyone this though, I mean, I’m only telling YOU ‘cuz like, I mean, you’re already one of us after all. The poor guy doesn’t know it though. She’s playing hard to get ya see?” Karina nodded understandingly.
“And that oh-so-cool one behind him, gosh, he’s the MOST sought after guy in the school. I mean, pretty obvious huh?” Mara babbled on, pointing to the couple of girls with layers of make-up at least a meter thick attempting to get him into a conversation. “Your own cousin is in LOVE with him. He’s never given us his full name. He says Remus is his only name. Oh look, the others are moving off, let’s go…” before Karina could say anything, Mara grabbed her wrist and pulled her along. Just as they passed a beaming AJ (Susanna accepted his rose), Remus looked up at the exact same moment as Karina. She felt a faint blush creep onto her face as he stared at her intently. Even as she turned the corner, she still felt his intense blue gaze on her. When she was no longer in sight, Remus leaned forward and tapped his still beaming friend on his shoulder and said in a voice that would have made many a girl swoon (A/N: *swoon*), “who’s that girl who went past with Mara?”
“According to Susanna, she’s Trissa’s cousin Karina. She just lost her mum and bro and her dad left her. She’s rather hot huh?” AJ laughed. “Of course, she’s not as hot as Susanna…” Remus shook his head in despair and rolled his eyes as his friend began lapsing into phrases that described Susanna with astonishing vocabulary all over again. While he turned his gaze back to the floor, a certain somebody’s face was floating in his mind…

Meanwhile, Karina and her new found friends had their way blocked – for once, by a bunch of girls with horrendous hairstyles which Jacqui later claimed that they had copied badly from the “TeenTalk” magazine, horribly applied make-up, very tight tops and skirts which were hardly covering their bottoms. The girl standing in front of the pack sneered at them and glared pointedly at Karina, “So…. Who’s this new SHE-DOG you’ve got in your pack?” Priscilla rolled her eyes and snapped, “I’m SORRY Cecilia, but I think you’ve got it all wrong… we’re not MIRRORS.” Cecilia opened her mouth to make a cutting comeback but was immediately cut off by Jacqui who hissed, narrowing her brown eyes dangerously, “So just shut the hell up and move your stupid humongously FAT asses away. NOW!” when the girls stubbornly refused to budge, Jacqui gave a deep growl from the back of her throat and barreled a way through them, shoving and pushing them all away. Karina turned to the nearest person – Susanna and was about to ask who those girls were when she turned around and explained that she and Jacqui had been rather good friends with Cecilia before they met Mara, Priscilla and Trissa. They somehow left Cecilia out of many things and in a huff, she had gone off to create a whole new ‘gang’ of her own. They were apparently the wanna-be-popular girls. Karina blinked. She still had loads to learn that day.
It was not long before they had their break and the girls brought Karina to their table right smack in the middle of the canteen. Although Karina could not figure why, quite a number of lads wolf-whistled as she walked past. Initially, she thought they were whistling at the other girls but Trissa laughed and claimed they were whistling at HER. While she was busy attempting to process these new information, a rather unfamiliar voice asked, “Is this seat taken?” followed by a hand pointing at the empty seat next to her. Karina turned her green eyes upwards and met the blue gaze of Remus. Wordlessly, she nodded. At the other end of the table, AJ was talking to Susanna gaily. The other girls were staring in shock at the purple and black head seated next to Karina, who didn’t seem to understand why they were looking at her with goddamned shocked expressions. She felt a sudden tug on her sleeve as Trissa stood up and said sweetly, “could you come to the restroom with me please?”
“Oh but I just…” she never got the chance to reply as her cousin yanked her to her feet and half-dragged her to the washroom. The moment the door closed, Trissa spun around and practically glared daggers at Karina, “Tell me what you did to Remus! You KNOW he never sits with anyone else besides AJ and they ALWAYS sit at the far end of the canteen alone! Now YOU come along and he immediately sits besides you?” Karina blinked in shock and mumbled, “Maybe AJ wanted to sit with Susanna or something so…” Trissa rolled her eyes and snapped, “NO! He said himself that he would NEVER sit with anyone else besides AJ!” Karina shrugged helplessly. “Well, I happen to LIKE him. A LOT A LOT A LOT! So since he happens to like YOU so much, YOU are going to get him to like me. Get it? or I’ll tell every single person in school how you tried to make me get him to like you ‘cuz you’re a newbie in school and you want every girl to be jealous of you ‘cuz you got Remus!” Karina could find nothing to reply to that and stared at the retreating back of her cousin whom she used to play and giggle with in the past. She was nothing like the cold, ruthless person who was stalking away angrily, her blue and black ponytail swaying violently as she moved.
When Karina returned to her seat, she felt Remus’s eyes on her again. She turned to him and stared right back, hissing coldly, “Don’t you know that it’s rude to stare?” before turning back to her food. She felt him lean closer, “And will you believe that you’re the very first girl I’ve ever sat beside?” she inched away, “No, no I will not.”

A/N: to be continued soon….

i could spend my life in this sweet surrender;

Saturday, May 06, 2006

2:52 PM

when kitty is bored, she does stupid quizzes like these:

You Are a Light Pink Rose

You represent sweetness and grace.
Your vibe: Kind and gentle
Falling in love with you: is like falling in love with a best friend

What Color Rose Are You?

im kind, yea i cld agree. im gentle? HELLOOO.... is this pure shir or pure shit?

Your Gemstone is Topaz

Comforting, considerate, and stable.You are down to earth and grounded.

What Gemstone Are You?

anybody who knows me well enough wld definitely say that this is pure AND ripe shit.

now THIS i'm more interested in:

You Should Get An Asian Inspired Tattoo

Mysterious and expressiveYou like to show off, but you also like to keep some allure

What Tattoo Should You Get?

alright i was hoping for some weird weird out of the world thingy but nvm, good enough.

and this one is some random one...

You Are a Coy Flirt!

You're not so much a flirt as the type of girl who draws flirts inWhile you look like you're just relaxing, secretly you've got your game onA little look here, a little wink there... you give men the encouragement they craveAnd in return, they flirt up a storm with you - while you just sit and smile

What Kind of Flirt Are You?

yea yea if i only cld b half as chio as tt girl in the pic. note: im NOT as zi lian as bunny. heh.

Your Vibe Is Secretly Sexy

Sexy isn't exactly a word you'd use to describe yourselfBut you have a quite allure that certain men feel appealingYou don't need to flaunt your stuff to be sexierA little more confidence in yourself, and you'll really light up a room!

How Sexy Is Your Vibe?

no comments...

You Are A Lily

You are a nurturer and all around natural therapist.People see you as their rock. And they are able to depend on you.You are a soothing influence. You can make people feel better with a few words.Your caring has more of an impact than even you realize.

What Flower Are You?

wow... tt sounds really nice. :D im a soothing influence. IM A SOOTHING INFLUENCE! WOW!

alright im so bloody BORED with this. mayb ill try the quiz on bunny's blog...

[x] Part 1 -- The Basics [x]
What's your name? :::
sing li lin aka kitty
Birthplace :::
singapore. duh
Age :::
13+
Age you act :::
i nvr knew i acted an age
Current location :::
my house
Eye color :::
dark brown
Hair color :::
black, apparently with streaks of brown
Right, lefty or ambidextrous? :::
right
Zodiac sign? :::
monkey
Height? :::
165

[x] Part 2 -- Describe... [x]
Your heritage/nationality :::
singaporean
Your hair :::
not too dry but not exactly silky/lustrous either. unlike bunny's. *cough* *cough*
Your fears :::
dun ask
Your perfect room :::
split level, enormous king sized bed. lots n lots of stuffed toys/cushions/rugs
What you practically do in a day :::
wake up, try not to kill everyone i see, eat thn go to bed and await the nxt horrible day

[x] Part 3 -- What is/are... [x]
Words you overuse :::
fuck
Phrases you overuse :::
curse phrases
Your first thought when you wake up :::
huh, u mean it's morning?
Your greatest accomplishment :::
ah.... ah... come to think of it, do i HAVE accomplishments?
Something you want to do :::
kill everyone i see

[x] Part 4 -- This or that [x]
Pepsi or Coke :::
pepsi
McDonald's or Burger Kings :::
McDonald's
Britney Spears or Christina Aguilera :::
Christina Aguilera
Chocolate or vanilla :::
vanilla
Adidas or Nike :::
Nike
Black or white :::
black
Bills or Coins ((Think $$$)) :::
the largest bills available. all of 'em.
Burgers or hot dogs :::
burgers
Egypt or France :::
Egypt
Rock or rap :::
rap or rock. either one's fine

[x] Part 5 -- Do you...[x]
Smoke :::
no. N HELL TO THOSE PPL WHO BLOW SMOKE INTO MY FACE WHEN I WALK PAST. *%$^#*
Curse :::
that's a very dumb question.
Sing well :::
oh yes, VERY well. see... *warbles the first line of 'my heart will go on'*
Sing in the shower :::
duh
Talk to yourself --a lot-- :::
alot is an understatement my dear
Believe in yourself :::
sometimes
Like taking these longass surveys? :::
no. but seriously, i have nothing better to do.
Play an instrument :::
does used to count?
Want to go to college? :::
y not?
Want to get married? :::
no. marraige is useless. juz have a few flings here n there....
Want to have children? :::
can a adopt puppies n kittens n baby bunnies etc instead?Think you're a health freak? :::
no.
Get along with your parents :::
yes.
Get along with your siblings? :::
i dun have any.
Think you're popular :::
of cuz *blinks*

[x] Part 6 -- In the past month have you..[x]
Gone out of state :::
no
Drank alchohal :::
no
Smoke :::
no.
Get high :::
duh
Done any drugs :::
no.
Eaten an entire box of oreos :::
yes.
Been on stage :::
yes.
Gone skinny dipping :::
no.
Been dumped :::
no. i haven even gotten together with someone. n anyway, i'd dump e jerk b4 he dumps me
Dyed your hair :::
no.
Stolen anything :::
yea. chocolates from e fridge

[x] Part 7 -- Your friends! =D [x]
Craziest :::
clarine. XP
Loudest :::
ningyi AND xiangyun
Most shy :::
ah.... my frenz r all thick skinned ppl. esp someone called bu***
Blondest :::
none
Smartest :::
i dunno. (in actual fact, NONE r smart.)
Kindest :::
shu hui
Best personality :::
shu hui
Most talented :::
no idea
Best singer :::
ah..... seriously, none of thm sing very well...
Most ghetto :::
wazzat?
Drama Queen ((or King XP)) :::
MEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEME (pls look at the 'me's in front. they were written by bunny. need i say more?
Pain in the ass :::
s***
The one you just want to strangle to death ((Homer Simpson style)):::
can a name half e population in the world instead?
Funniest :::
eileen
Best person for advice :::
myself
Dependable :::
clarine? yi ling?
Trustworthy :::
myself i dun trust anyone
Druggie :::
.....
Most likely to end up in jail :::
ne. ill murder everyone
Person you've known the longest :::
valerie

[x] Part 8 -- The Last... [x]
Last dream :::
cant rmb
Last nightmare :::
cant rmb either
Car ride :::
too long ago
Last time you cried :::
ytd. while watching tv
Last movie seen :::
ice age 2. with bunny the demented jesslyn.
Last movie rented :::
i dun rent movies
Last book read :::
circle of magic
Last word said :::
ok
Last curse word said :::
fuck
Last time you laugh :::
after lunch today at arnd 1 something pm.
Last phone call :::
last night. im antisocial
Last CD played :::
robbie williams intensive care
Last song you listened to :::
fack by eminem
Last annoyance :::
my mum. she made me stand up n sit on e bed while she mopped the are where im currently at now.
Last IM :::
an hr ago
Last weird encounter :::
forgot
Last person you hugged :::
my bolster. is tt counted?
Last person you yelled at :::
i dun yell. im kind n gentle rmb?
Last time you wore a skirt :::
ah... i cant rmb. ytd?
Last time you've been evil :::
im nvr evil
Sarcastic? :::
wad do you think?
Last time you fought with your parents :::
today
Last time you wished upon a star :::
e last time i saw a star?
Played Truth or Dare :::
forgot
Spent quality time alone :::
like... when im bathing?

[x] Part 9 -- I swear this is the last one! -- Randomness [x]
Are you talking to someone on AIM :::
no.
Do you feel lonely :::
yes
Ever TP'd someone's house :::
wad's tp?.
How about egging someone's house :::
felt like it many many times. nvr done it.
Do you not like dislike not like me? :::
i hate u. pain in my ass.
Ain't Eminem and 50 Cent just fine? :::
eminem's ok. nvr heard 50 cent's songs b4
Yo Momma :::
so short she jumped off e couch n died?
Ever been so hungry you felt like you could eat the person next to you? :::
no.
What do you think of George Bush? :::
dunno
Any secret fetishes? :::
wad's fetish? *opens eyes innocently*
Do you like to wear chains? O_o :::
u mean as in e big heavy metal shit tt they drape around doors to lock em? no
How many languages do you speak? :::
eng. chi. alittle bit of mal. a little bit of jap.
Damn.. are your fingers tired? Cause mine sure are! :::
no they're not. is it my prob tt ur fingers r tired?
Glad this is over? ((Say yes and I'll stalk you =P)) :::
stalk me n ill make sure ur so horribly mauled tt u cant move.

The Survey Where You Say The First Word That Comes To Mind. Yay.
What comes to mind when you hear..
..snow?:
yay
..rain?:
FINALLY!
..tornado?:
uh oh
..summer love?:
ooooo
..Jon?:
huh?
..Mike?:
mike
..Shea?:
shit
..banana?:
nana
..dizzy?:
oh
..Laura?:
tell laura i love her
..Juan?:
juanna
..car?:
crash
..white?:
black.
..peppermint?:
sweet
..New Found Glory?:
har?
..placebo?:
????
..orange juice?:
orange
..candid camera?:
er...
..sister?:
brother
..brother?:
sister
..hate?:
s***
..school?:
river valley high
..President?:
SR Nathan
..football?:
kick
..rap?:
eminem
..pop?:
ok lah..
rock?:
not too bad
..punk?:
ky
..sex?:
bed
..death?:
*cheers*
..baby?:
urgh
..duuude?:
wad's up?
..the end?:
yay

ok.... tt was dumb. im currently waiting for my results for tt angel thingy. nvm ill post this first.

i could spend my life in this sweet surrender;

Friday, May 05, 2006

3:31 PM

alright, so im at home being really really bored n in no mood to do my hw which i so totally did NOT DO ytd nite cuz my eye was already smarting like shit n i had to do my sj total defence ppt. 60 slides. 60 SLIDES CAN U BLIV IT?! CRAZY LAH! how to finish lor?!?! anyway, i managed to do 50 slides. n my dear loving com decided to hang up on me. WARGH!!! so i gave up, slammed my keyboard back, switched off e comp and went to sleep, hoping to rest my eyes. but however, tt was so the wrong thing to do. when i woke up in the morning, my eyes were so freaking red n swollen i cldnt even open thm wtf? so poor me didn't go to school today n stayed at home n slacked n slacked while my dear classmates/squadmates r suffering in school. waha. haiz... anyway, i LOVE this song:

Breathing by Lifehouse

I'm finding my way back to sanity again
Though I don't really know what
I'm gonna do when I get there
Take a breath and hold on tight
Spin around one more time
And gracefully fall back to the arms of grace
'Cause I am hanging on every word you say
And even if you don't want to speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
'Cause I want nothing more than to
Sit outside Heaven's door and listen to you breathing
Is where I want to be, yeah...
Where I wanna be...
I am looking past the shadows
In my mind into the truth and
I'm trying to identify
The voices in my head
God, which one is you
Let me feel one more time
What it feels like to feel alive
And break these calluses off of me
One more time
'Cause I am hanging on every word you say
And even if you don't want to speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
'Cause I want nothing more than to sit
Outside your door and listen to you breathing
Is where I want to be, yeah...
I don't want a thing from you
Bet you're tired of me, waiting
For the scraps to fall
Off of your table to the ground
La Da Da La Da Da Da Da Da
'Cause I just want to be here now
'Cause I am hanging on every word you're sayin'
Even if you don't wanna speak tonight, that's alright, alright with me
'Cause I want nothing more
Than to sit outside Heaven's door
And listen to you breathing
It's where I wanna be, yeah...(x2)
Where I wanna be...
Where I wanna be...

anybodi interested in this song find me on msn, ill send u the song. :D oh yea... DOES ANYBODY HAVE GEEK IN THE PINK?? apparently, alot alot alot of ppl seem to think tt tt song rox alot.
anyway, working on a new story n it's gonna feature as many of my 'animal-ized' friends as possible. n no bunny, im sorry but i cant seem to put my plot for e karina story into words so it shall have to wait. so far, bunny has been involved in this interesting new story of mine and nxt tocome shall b erm... damn i cant rmb. oh yes, goldfish mayb? :D my deepest apologies to beryl but i think im quite unable to insert a shark into this happy story n ah... pepe, i wun b able to insert a penguin either but i'll add da duck. it shall be named zack. oh yea, jess, u've been split into 2 characters. u r officially: grandma wendy the rabbit n bunny the grand daughter rabbit. *grins* perfect, after informing everyone of my new story i seem to have lost my plot. WRITER'S BLOCK AH!!!!! blah. of cuz, e main characters ir 2 really chio girls called estelle(rmb bunny's pullip doll?) n haylie. also a butterfly-that-can-turn-into-a-guy called aridian. wanna know more? well juz hafta wait till i fnish e story.
well, i shall go n erm......... try my best to continue the story for the benefit of mankind. :)

i could spend my life in this sweet surrender;