Blogger is so fucking screwed can. lol, I couldn't even access my own blog =.=
Hey barney, thanks for the tip. Haha, bullshit now I've to tell everyone that I changed my url. To hell with blogger, and to hell with all the stupid people who stopped blogging and refuse to delete their blog and make their URLs available for use again. razor-blade-kisses doesn't look quite as nice as razorbladekisses can. ):
Ohwells, I think I'm getting addicted to Mayday songs? :/ But they're actually quite nice, to be honest. Staring at the words appearing in this white box now, I'm beginning to realize that I should really be doing my mounds of homework. But no, I'm not. I'm still tapping away at this keyboard, trying to convince myself in my mind to DOMYHOMEWORK. I feel like cursing suddenly. Haha, however, for the sake of my INNOCENT audience, I must refrain from doing so. And no I did NOT curse in my first sentence.
List of homework: X physics worksheet 3 X chinese worksheet X maths worksheet
Thanks for recommending this song bytheway. (: Nice.
Anyway, had a great day on Friday, haha. Qinyu, I'm in love with your safety pin :DDD Did you know that safety pins WONT make you bleed no matter how many times you scratch over that same spot? Ah yes, Hook was damn retarded can. After my speech on why people shouldn't object against self-mutilation, he said something about "i'm sure noone in this class in pondering over *something something*". My entire corner burst out laughing.
Qinyu help me scratch my name on my hand. Hehe, it looks nice. And my name is freaking easy to carve lah. xD But then during Games Day later on during St. John it started to rain, then it was like freaking itchy. :/ Hmmms...
Let's talk about my new blogskin. YES I KNOW THE STUPID THING LOOKS LIKE 'SHITTING WHEN DEPRESSED'. Haha that's what I thought too, gave me a shock. (: I like this skin quite abit. Hehe, but I prefered the previous one. Stupid blogger REJECTED IT. I hate blogger. Maybe I should delete my blog. :DDD
Wait I really should do my homework now...
But I'm not?
Ohno, what am I going to DO.
HOMEWORKHOMEWORKHOMEWORK.
How about after lunch?
Ehhh. Great idea. Okay I shall do my homework after lunch. Meanwhile I should go and... erm. Talk to my dog? Not exactly. I should stare at my homework and try to digest it.
Yes, even better idea. I'm sure I will not be able to do such a simple task. xD
<33 lilin aka kitty~
i could spend my life in this sweet surrender;
Sunday, March 18, 2007
1:39 PM
This song is so touching. I think he's amazing to be able to forgive his father. I don't think I could have if I were him. I can't forgive.
Good Charlotte - Emotionless Lyrics
Hey dad I'm writing to you Not to tell you That I still hate you Just to ask you How you feel And how we fell apart How this fell apart
Are you happy out there in this great wide world? Do you think about your sons? Do you miss your little girl? When you lay your head down How do you sleep at night? Do you even wonder if we're all right? Well we're all right We're all right
[Chorus:] It's been a long hard road without you by my side Why weren't you there all the nights that we cried? You broke my mother's heart, you broke your children for life It's not ok, but we're all right I remember the days you were a hero in my eyes But those are just a long lost memory of mine I spent so many years learning how to survive Now I'm writing just to let you know I'm still alive
The days I spent so Cold, so hungry Were full of hate I was so angry The scars run deep inside this tattooed body There's things I'll take To my grave But I'm okay I'm okay
[Chorus:] It's been a long hard road without you by my side Why weren't you there all the nights that we cried? You broke my mother's heart You broke your children for life It's not ok, but we're all right I remember the days you were a hero in my eyes But those are just a long lost memory of mine Now I'm writing just to let you know that I'm still alive Yeah I'm still alive
And Sometimes I forgive Yeah and this time I'll admit That I miss you, said I miss you
[Chorus:] It's been a long hard road without you by my side Why weren't you there all the nights that we cried? You broke my mother's heart You broke your children for life It’s not ok, but we're all right I remember the days you were a hero in my eyes But those are just a long lost memory of mine Now I'm writing just to let you know that Im still alive..
And sometimes I forgive And this time I'll admit That I miss you, I miss you Hey dad
Zone competition yesterday. 5 whole months of training for that single session of competing with all the other schools for champion. In fact, I would be lying if I said I don't really care if we don't win. Anyway, we didn't get champion. ): But Stella's team did! :DDD Like we said before the competition: If you get first, we must get second. If we get first, you must get second. RV MUST WIN WIN WIN!!!
Well, RV did win everything in the end, except for Ambulance where the stupid A1 got best in everything =.= And RV guys got second in position, with a horrifying difference of 60 marks between the champion and them. It's so clear that the sir is very biased against RV. Jealous that we got the champion last year and won every single category too? You just wait, I will make sure that next year, we win every single thing back. I'll leave you eating our dust and crying your pathetic tears. Fuck. You will pay. Even if RV didn't deserve the champion and their standard wasn't as good as last year, they didn't deserve to have such an extreme difference in marks either.
I'm ashamed of myself. I screwed everything up. LOL.
For footdrill I missed out an entire command, thank hell the sir wasn't looking at us do footdrill at that time. Busy gawking at another team with their kallang wave armswing. And then when the entire procedure finally ended, I couldn't even report because he was still TAKING HIS TIME STROLLING BACK. And I was standing there like some idiot. Until he stop walking then I can report. Anyway, our bangs were actually very good. :DDD
Next, how I screwed up first aid. Okay, actually first aid wasn't all that bad because I remembered to call the ambulance early! Hehe. And ma'am dearest, are you sure laceration is NOT AN IMPORTANT/SERIOUS INJURY? According to the first aid manual, laceration is caused by a strong ripping force, so either a chunk of flesh or skin should be hanging off. You're telling me that isn't serious? Yes, of course it isn't serious. And I didn't wear my gloves. And I forgot that I already told my no.4 to call the ambulance and after we had tilted the 'principal' into the recovery position, I was like: NO.3! GO AND CALL... *remembers that ambulance has been called* ...BANDAGE AND WIPE THE CASUALTY'S SWEAT!
Last category was nursing. It was held after lunch and I actually greeted the ma'am: Good MORNING, ma'am. ohmytians. OMG it was the worst case i've ever done in my entire life. Imagine talking and trying to smile sweetly at a dummy can! At least get a real person to act lah! T.T I almost died when the relative told me that the dummy was called 'Mary'. And the relative was called 'John'. With a freaking nasal voice. And I had to keep a smile plastered to my face. And I forgot to watch the chest rise and fall for breathing rate and ended up placing two fingers at the dummy's nostrils. No, not inside. You know how people always check if other people are dead? Yea, that method. The medication was totally screwed. Because... because it was just screwed okay. It was raped. Whatever. Then my Wanting and Fenghan didn't even get to do tepid sponging or bedmaking because I took up so much time. WTFH. I'm not cursing, I'm just screaming their names. Didn't wash hands either. Hmmms. I think that's all I screwed. I hope that is.
After nursing, we went back to the holding room. I was almost crying already cos I so screwed everything! We just sat there and ate and ate and laughed and laughed for 2 hours straight because we were so mentally stressed. We ate 3/4 bag of Lay's, 1 bag of Cheezels, 3/4 pack of Twisties, 5 wangwang xi-de-dong, 4 lollipops, 5 packs of green tea, 1 bottle of waterchestnut and sugarcane drink, okay I hope that's all we ate. NO! There was still the 4 fried eggs, 10 dumpling like things, 2 boxes of sandwhiches and... many many packets of seaweed. I think only RV stuffs their competitors with so much food. We were practically picnicking there! Aha, then all the other schools were like, their tables so empty. And ours right, Wanting couldn't even see Suyu's face because of the big bag of food. :DDD
Then there was the prize presentation ceremony. First was the footdrill commander course thing. Then ambulance category. Talked about the Rv guys already just now so shall go on to Nursing Cadet. First they announced fourth position, then third position. And we enver heard our team number the entire time. I was like already thinking: Okay, we clearly didn't get anything. Forget it. SUDDENLY!
"And in second position, NC5 from River Valley Corps."
I almost grinned but I somehow managed to march my team in front. Hehe. In the end, when I was right in front of the sir, I couldn't stand it, I smiled. Then he smiled back. Wow. I like that sir. After that was champion.... "NC7 from River Valley Corps." I think I almost screamed: STELLA YOU ROCK! Lol, I couldn't stop myself from grinning already. My whole body started shaking. LOL.
Individual categories: Stella's team got best in First Aid. :D But initially they said was Best in Nursing as well. Then later on found out that it was Bukit Batok Sec.
Then was Nursing Adult category. OF COURSE NINGYI'S TEAM GOT EVERYTHING! :DDD Best in Nursing/First Aid/Champion. THEY WERE SIMPLY AMAZING I TELL YOU. I NEARLY CRIED WITH JOY. See, I told you to trust your team, they'll never let you down! ((: I was right wasn't I? Keke. Okay I'm just houlianpi-ing.
My team got best in footdrill but this year no trophy like wth? And then we were the only team which passed footdrill. Again. Like mock comp that time. Right, we've a knack for being the only ones to pass. Haha. Okay so lame. Anyway, Stella's team scored 5 marks better than us for Nursing. And we got 5 marks better than them for footdrill. Then they got 0.5 marks better than us for First Aid! So guess what? The difference between the champion and the second team is like just 0.5 can! T.T But nevermind, still RV corps de. xD
Hmmm, then after everything ended we went to JEC to eat dinner @ LJS. My entire team. LWSF: I'm so proud of all of you. Everything that we have gone through in these past five months, I will treasure every single minute of them. Although this result was based largely on how we hugged the buddha's feet like mad for the last week, I still believe that it was also based on how hard we worked and all the effort we put into the competition. I love you guys for doing your best, for studying so hard, for laughing, for crying, for hugging away when we're doing nursing, for running away in different directions everytime, for being emo.... for being just the way you are. No matter what happens, you'll always be my one and only team. I don't care if others said we couldn't have made it. I said that we definitely can make it and we did. We're the special-est team ever, because we're the ap-est. haha, not exactly. But we're certainly the most emotionally unstable and emo-est team. HAHA. You have to agree with that right! xD You're all the best no. 2, 3, and 4 that I can ever have. I'm glad I so strongly objected to the idea of switching teams. Because I don't think I could have worked so well with them. I know all of us have had thoughts of quitting comp before, but I'm really really happy that none of us really did so. Because then, we'd never have had the chance to go for the real competition, or own all the other schools like we did. So in short, I love you girls. LOL, I know I was like damn naggy and all giving you all so many many many letters. Just wanted to encourage you all mah. Keke, anyway, I'm also glad I believed in you. (:
<33 lilin aka kitty ^^
And did you have to spoil my mood so quickly after I reached home? After finding out that I got best leader. No, wait I didn't even tell you that. Because I know you'd definitely say something like "Best leader still don't know how to whatwhatwhat arh." I didn't even pick a fight or argument with you. You just started to scold me. You just blew up at me after I said one neutral sentence. Then you blame me for your quarrels with dad. It's not my fault okay. No, it's always my fault. It's always me, never you. I'm always the one to make you quarrel with him. It's shameful to cry because I'm 15 already. Oh I'm sorry but I never realized that once I reach teenage adolescence, my tear ducts will stop working immediately. What am I? Inhumane? Maybe I should just train myself to control my emotionless and be EMOTIONLESS. I should never cry again. I must never cry again. I must remain emotionless no matter what. Go find me lessons on that and then I will learn. Fuck. I hate it when you do this. I didn't even start the argument.
i could spend my life in this sweet surrender;
Sunday, March 04, 2007
9:26 PM
To satisfy that shark lurking about in my flooded tagboard, holding out a *soggy* cookie that looks absolutely disgusting delicious and tempting, I shall update. On what else, but the upcoming cross country and UG camp? ((:
CROSS COUNTRY.
This horrifying, albeit kinda good 'cos we get to skip lessons, event is occuring tomorrow! Held at where? TURF CITY WHERE THE HORSES USED TO ROAM. And did I mention he was buying a bar that I'm in Centaur? And what is Centaur, you ask? Centaur is a mythical creature, half human and half horse. Now everyone repeat after me where we're going to run for cross country again.
"TURF CITY WHERE THE HORSES USED TO ROAM!"
Thaaaaat's right. Centaurs are half horsies! And we're running in a place where horsies used to run and therefore who will win? CENTAUR!
Centaur's house color is RED. And although CNY just ends today, Mr. Faizad believes that the luck is still there. So who will win? CENTAUR! :DD
Although I strongly belief that I will not be able to make it through the run... I promise to finish it. BEcause I don't want to get lost and end up home at 1.30am.
UG CAMP. Ah yes, I will breeze through this topic because I need to go search youtube for dance videos. Guess what we're going to dance to! (:
Why're you looking at me expectantly? I SAID GUESS!
Here are the details: X I'M A AFFINITY! :DDD (ningyi are you jealous?) X 9th, 10th, 11th March X We're dancing on the second night, everyone's dancing actually. X i hope it's fun X yea i don't know what else to say?
Uh huh that's all I think.
Gotta go now.
Beryl, I hope you're satisfied and you can keep your cookie. (:
TATAS.
<33 lilin
i could spend my life in this sweet surrender;
This.Is.Me
Hello. This is Li Lin, also known as KO7 or Han (don't ask).
I'm currently trapped in a hell hole with uniforms that make us look like nurses.
I'm 15 and am just this close to killing myself.
FuckedUp.Insecure.Neurotic.Emotional; Just F.I.N.E
Hell yeah, that's me. You got a fking problem?
Morbid.Fascination
I have a weird fetish with black and red things.
I like dogs&cats and any other animal.
I enjoy writing&reading.
I think self-mutilation is acceptable.
Deepest.Loathing
I hate life.
Desires
I want to study hard.
I want to be emotionless.
I want to stop giving a shit about everything.
