MY BLACK GOTH.

Sunday, April 29, 2007

5:17 PM

ok ignore this post ok i's not here for your entertainment it's just here for me to revise my chem so forgive me for any grammatical/punctuation errors im not gonna bother checking em yea.

Appearance of unknown:

pink-hydrated Mn2+ and hydrated Co2+. for solutions is Mn2+ ions and Co2+ ions.

orange-K2Cr2O7 and Pb3O4. for solutions is Cr2O7- ions.

yellow-an ugly color. no. er. yes. PbO, HOT ZnO which turns white when it cools. AgI and PbI2. And Cr2O3. i think. no wait. i check. ah yes im right, eh no im not. it's PbCrO4.OHNO?!

green-hydrated Ni2+ hydrated Fe2+ hydrated CuCl3 CuCO3 Cr(CO3)3 Cr2O3

colors still got what colors? ohshat.

blue- Cu2+... salts. hydrated. anhydrous Co2+. er. solutions. Cu2+ ions.

purple-nice color. eh. wtf. KMnO4 (: solution is MnO4-

black-Iodide crystals. CoO FeO CuO MnO2+ yes.

brown-i cant remember. fk.

yellowish brown-Fe3+? for soltion. hydrated FeCl3.

reddish brown-fuck. wait i check. Fe(OH)3

grey. alamak everything metal lah.

PINK!!!! PINK IS ALSO PURE COPPER. so pretty right.

ok. on to test for Cations.

yes my ions..

add NaOH. K+ and Na+ is no reaction. NH4+. get that when NH3 evolves on heating.

reddish brown is Fe3+ dirty green is Fe2+? Cu2+ is copper. eh is blue ppt. insoluble. everything is insoluble. no? wait. Ca2+ is not soluble. Zn2+ Al3+ Pb2+ is soluble. white ppt. yes. (:

and then there is Nh3. dots. i dont know, how? wahlau. K+ Na+ no reaction. Ca2+ also. i think. Nah4- no reaction too. uhmm. white ppt. Zn2+ and Al3+ and Pb2+ but the latter 2 are soluble. eh insoluble.

Cu2+ is blue ppt. soluble? Fe2+ is still dirty green. never bath. Fe3+ is reddish brown and insoluble. like its brother. the one who never bath.

Na2CO3. what's that please? K+ and Na+ and NH4- is no reaction. happy people eh the potassium and the sodium. always no reaction. Er. White ppt is... Ca2+ Zn2+ and Pb2+ but Al3+ is evolved from CO2? colored ppt. stays the same. yay.

whaddafuck. 3 more pages?

forget it. i give up on chemistry. it doesnt spark with me. we got no love. yea. i think i love myself more. ~~but of course~~

i could spend my life in this sweet surrender;

Sunday, April 22, 2007

5:22 PM

Oh whaddafuck.

I can't believe this.

I've been online since 12.30 today.

In other words, I've been hooked on the computer, or in this case laptop, for more than 3 hours?! Well, around there I suppose.

And all the while I was playing some stupid game called Virtual Villagers or something? And the trail version was only 1hour long but I didn't close the program so managed to play for a long time. Pretty pointless game because the fking villagers totally REFUSED to do what I wanted them to do. And yes, one of those things I wanted them to do was mate. BECAUSE THEY WERE ALL GROWING SO OLD AND THE POPULATION WAS DWINDLING LAH CAN.

Errrr yea then dl-ed some game called Bella's Beauty Salon? Something along those lines. Don't ask what it's about it's so fking lame I can't believe I even dl-ed it in the first place.

So what was I doing after that? Blog surfing (like of course) and then reading fictionpress and uh... listening to the same few songs for ages. SIAN. Oh yes and surfing porn.

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I'M KIDDING LAH.

Y'know what? I actually promised myself that I'd revise my coordinate geometry today. :/ But clearly, I didn't lah. ): Why can't I even keep a promise I made to myself? I really can't afford to fail through Year 3. And look here. Here I am digressing about how I should put in effort in my studies and not think I can breeze through it but on the other hand, I'm still tapping away at the keyboard rights. shit lah. I'm making myself depressed only.

Well, at least I (kinda) finished my homework yesterday when XY and Beryl came over yesterday. Did our homework, but of course we got distracted when I turned on my laptop to watch youtube. And we discovered many retarded hokkien videos. Hokkien Star Wars (which is pretty ancient), and Hokkien LOTR (pretty ancient too. I think I really lag like shit can. Er, not that shit lags. Sorry Sheila. >< )

Then we ordered McDonalds and watched pirated Mr Bean's Holiday which basically SUCKED. Because like I mentioned earlier on, it's pirated so the quality is really not good.

I'm re-addicted to Everytime by Simple Plan. I think it's so sweet lah. ): I'm pretty sure I postedthe lyrics up here once before. Okay, my posts are actually 80% lyrics I guess.

Finally bought the black and red HP pouch. Umm, actually it's red with a black zipper but nevermind. ICON. :/ I think I waste too much money. *nods*

Fk lah. I should go and study now. But am I? No.

Okay I shall turn the laptop off now. After 3hrs 15mins of being hooked on it.

<33
lilin

P.S: ~~maybe I should stop making myself depressed. Where's a penknife when I need it?~~

i could spend my life in this sweet surrender;

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

9:06 PM

I want to go someplace where nobody can find me.
Not even me.

-BOTTLED UP (Jaye Murray)

Screw blogger. Go read that book. It's really good. It made me cry.

Then again, I cry all the time. Sorry I forgot.

I'm going to flunk my term ass. I don't want to fail it. I want to ace it. But can I? Do you think I can? No. Do I think I can? No.

I hate failing. I want to be perfect. ~~What's perfect?~~ I tried to study, I couldn't. I just couldn't concentrate. I don't mind being a geek, a nerd. Just pleasepleaseplease don't let me fail anything this time. F9? Fk it. What am I going to do? someonepleasetellmewhattodo. I think I'm going to break down soon.

I want to cry.

Stop talking to me. Busted my phone bill. $62.20. FK STARHUB. 1000 free messages my ass. More like 500. Leaving their customer to wallow about in the bill of 1244 messages. They probably failed their maths. Like I'm going to.

I really really want to cry.

Bye,
LILIN.

P.S: The scars faded away. ): iwantthembackNOW.

i could spend my life in this sweet surrender;

Sunday, April 15, 2007

4:10 PM

WAHHHHHHHHHHHH SAI LAH! STUPID MATHS FILE WHO ASK YOU BE SO INCONSPICUOUS LUHHS. T.T I didn't bring my maths file back home which means I didn't bring my maths notes back home which means I don't know any formulas which means I can't do my maths homework at all. So from like, 11am this morning to 4.12pm right now, all I've done is my chemistry (abit) and english reading and writing (half undone). And I was attempting to do my maths worksheet 4 but in the end I decided not to do it anymore because I was getting more and more confused with all the formulas of alpha and beta and hell knows what lah. And I've got this bad bad feeling that I have done everything WRONG! >.< Shit man. I think I'll kill myself if I really did the entire question 1 wrong.

Which leaves me with my maths remedial worksheets (2 and 3) and my PT proposal. PT how to do syllabus? "I aim for all the St. John members to be able to do pumpings properly by the end of this month and how to do jumping jacks the accurate way by the end of next month."? Whatever. I'll just crap something out I guess. I loathe maths. I absolutely loathe maths to the core. Sometimes I wish I could just stop pretending I don't care and really don't give a shit about anything. Why I bother worrying and being concerned about stupid things don't make sense to me either.

Anyway, I'm looking for a couple of books and alot alot of songs. Stupid mp3000.net ain't working anymore. Must have been shut down by the internet police or something. ZZZ. Anyway, people interested in goth can go read 'You are so cursed!' by... can't remember the author's name. I like that book. Hehe. Okay actually it doesnt have anything much to do with goth besides the fact that the main character is a somewhat goth. Haha I'm interested in goth luhhs!

-Blue Bloods (De Cruz)
-Vampire Kisses III: Vampireville (OMG IF YOU HAVEN'T READ THE FIRST TWO BOOKS GO READ 'EM MAN! THEY ROCKROCKROCKROCKROCK MY SOCKS OFF.)

Bytheway, if anyone happens to have these songs listed below send to me can? ((: I'd be really really really grateful :D

x Don't dream It's over - Crowded House
x Come what may - soundtrack from Moulin Rogue
x Vindicated - Dashboard Confessional
x Way Back Into Love - Drew Barrymore and Hugh Grant (Music and Lyrics)
x Runaway Love - Ludacris feat. Mary J. BLige (this song is really damn touching go look the lyrics up. I'm not kidding.)
x Circle Circle Dot Dot - Jamie Kennedy
x Ring the Alarm - Ciara (!!! been looking for this for ages lor)
x Rompe - Daddy Yankee

Are those alot of songs? Haha I still have more but I shan't be greedy. >< But 98.7 FM is for some reason playing all acoustic songs right now. :/ Nevermind.

<33
LiLin
aka Kitty ^^

P.S: Thanks to the people who kept my taggie alive when I didn't update bytheway. Kekes.

i could spend my life in this sweet surrender;

Monday, April 09, 2007

9:03 PM

"Disconnected"

Sleeping awake and awake when I'm sleeping
I've got a dry kinda thirst when drenched
On sunny days all I can see is the shadow
And I'm not above being under
And I'm at the brink though I know that I'm empty
And I always hide when its my turn to seek
My only believe is not to have faith in believing
Before I begin I'm over

[chorus]

(Disconnected)Broken off again
And I'm only not lonely when I'm lonely by myself
(Disconnected)Numb in the pain again
I always back track forward
Cuz all in all I'm Disconnected

Quietly loud while I'm noisily silent
Keep holding my breath when I'm trying to breathe
Swimming against all of my waves and the rapids
I only win when I'm losing

[Chorus]

I just wanna live my life sedated
Cuz I love driving myself away
Disfunctionally sane don't give a damn
I cant comprehend what I understand

Disconnected
Numb in the pain again
I always back track forward
Cuz all in all I'm
Disconnected

Broken off again
And I'm only not lonely when I'm lonely by myself
Numb in the pain again
I always back track forward
Cuz all in all I'm
Disconnected

Disconnected. That's how I feel. For some reason, I feel fake. Whatever I do, whatever I say, it doesn't feel like I want to do it. When I laugh, I feel like I'm laughing just for the sake of it. When I talk, it's because I'm expected to. Am I? When I smile, it's like I drew a painting of someone frowning. Then I pasted a plastic smile over the frown. So it looks as though I'm smiling but underneath that smile... I don't know. I think that maybe I think I think too much. Yes, must be it. ((:

Nothing's wrong with me yea? :DDD Went to Vivo with my dearest WTFH first after school. We went to Candy Empire, and I bought JELLYBEANS!!! ^^ Then WTFH bough a tube of orange gel and shared it. And ate it like all along the way while we walked around Harbourfront/Vivo. Looked like they were eating some hair conditioner can - it taste like it anyway.

Then we went to Cheers (: where we bought like Magee Mee and 2 bottles of Pepsi Twist then we went to sit at the wheelchair ramp next to the MRT station to eat. We looked like damn lang2 bei4 can. T.T Then people were giving us curious glances. Wakaka. :X BUT IT WAS FUN!! It's like got the very xin4 fu2 feeling lor. Wait, is that how the hanyupinyin is supposed to be like?

After that went to Toys 'r' Us and took many many photos with the erm... toys. LOL. Then I go and put on some furry bunny ears haha damn retarded! >< Anyway, had loads of fun with WTFH. Then Suyu came to join us and we went to the playground just outside Burger King and relived our childhood. I think we're happy kids. AND THEN SOME LITTLE GIRL REJECTED ME WHEN I ASKED IF SHE WANT ME TO PLAY THE SEE SAW WITH HER?! OMG LAH CAN I FEEL SO HURT! haha. She was like, "No." I tell you she will be a real heartbreaker in future lor wtfh. Okay I was cursing and not calling my beloved members. ))):

Er yea I think that's all lah right. And there's no homework today.

AND I FINALLY UPDATED OKAY! : DDDD be touched, people! And I promise to reply my tags.... soon (:

<33
lilin
aka
kitty ^^

i could spend my life in this sweet surrender;

Monday, April 02, 2007

8:25 PM

Okay, my sincere apologies for not updating for such a long time. Knowing me, I'm just a lazy fat cat who refuses to do anything that requires the slightest bit of energy. Right, I'm exaggerating. Nevermind.

Now, on to my topic today:

Venue - 3L classroom
Time - Maths lesson

As usual, Qinyu was being the utmost joker and making me laugh like a mad ass regardless of the countless protests I made. And did I mention that there were many many ants surrounding our tables? Methinks it's because of my pretty scented candles. (I'M NOT KIDDING! THEY REALLY ARE PRETTY OKAY!) So OCL apparently couldn't tolerate the fact that we're having fun in his lesson while he's talking to the wall at the front of the class (ok i lie, people who like maths DO listen to him.), so he scolded us. Yea, and then made us go to the front of the class to share the joke with the class.

Frankly, I'm not pissed about that. If I were a teacher, I think I'd have the same reaction if I see two students being complete jokers in the middle of the class, laughing their heads off and not paying attention to me. What made me really MAD, was what he said later on.

"I am very disappointed. Especially you, Li Lin. I was about to praise you for your commendable effort in SJAB. *pauses* Best Member, was it? *I think:no you asshole it's called best leader. I say: Yea.* I was so proud of you when you went up that stage. Yes, now I'm really glad I didn't say it. I would have slapped myself in the face if I had. *I think:damn why didn't you do it, then we'll all have a good show.* Do you get what I mean? *I think: NO? I say: *nods* *"

HELLO? Putting in effort for SJAB and putting in effort in your class, are two completely different things. How can you link them together? Anyway, why do you make it sound as though I'd die if you didn't praise me? Do I look as though I want you to be proud of me? You're not my father for hell's sake. I don't need you to be proud of me. I am in no way related to you and no, you don't even have my respect.

How about respecting us before you expect us to respect you?

AND I CUT MY HAIR SO I LOOK LIKE A FUGLY MUSHROOM NOW! lol. Cost my $24 somemore. )): *watches money fly away* I'm never going back there again. Stupid hairdresser who refuses to layer my hair for me who's the customer here huh me or you? rah. Waste my time and money and lungs when I screamed after seeing my hair. Wakaka.

:/ never do my homework. So much for working hard this 2007. That resolution can never come true lah. Aha. Borrowed 'Father Unknown' by Lesley Pearse from the library today. I think it's not bad. ((: Shall read it instead of doing my homework. Hehe.

Yea lah nothing else to say le.

AT LEAST I UPDATED OKAY! xDDD

:DDDD I think OCL damn bu shuang me today. But do I look like I care? No.

<33
kitty aka LiLin. ^^

i could spend my life in this sweet surrender;

8:25 PM

i could spend my life in this sweet surrender;